"Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in Him."
Notice it doesn't say "let this part of me" or "let that part of me" or "let just a little bit of me" it says let ALL OF ME! So, as I read this verse over again and attempt to relate it to my own personal circumstance it might read something like this ... Let my impatient, weak, quiet, emotional, weary, irritable, sinner self wait quietly before God, for my hope is in Him! My hope IS in Him so the question then would be why would I do anything BUT wait quietly before Him? Well, I have yet to figure this one out so if any of you do have an answer then please let me know, will ya?!
There are more precious pictures of that sweet baby girl that may or may not be mine that I continue to follow. She definitely has a special place in my heart and will continue to be in my prayers but if it is in fact not who God has picked out for me then that will be okay. God has the perfect match for me and I will continue to wait, to the best of my ability, with ALL that I am in quiet and complete trust in the One who saved me!
Praise God for Truth - Praise God for His wisdom - Praise God for His authority - Praise God for Jesus!
Pray for all ears to hear Truth and to filter out Satan's lies - Pray for guidance in wisdom - Pray for submission to His authority and complete trust - Pray for growth in relationships with Jesus - Pray for the Kohout family as they continue on in the adoption process - Pray for my sweet baby girl ... right where she is!
Love-
amy
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Expectantly Waiting
In labor?! I think so! Yes! This is what I am going to name the point in which I am in the process right now....adoption labor! And believe me, the contractions are getting closer and closer and stronger and stronger each day! I can hardly stand it! So, this means that the Braxton Hicks have been going on since I found out I was #7 on the waiting list. No wonder I am exhausted! Ha!
I was sent a random email from the mom in the family that received their referral last week, Jana. You know, the one that I was supposed to get my referral before they did??!! I do believe God used her to encourage me as I was so disappointed last week. She wanted to thank me for the congratulations that I sent her, and also she had recognized our paperwork had been sent around the same time. Jana decided she would introduce herself as we would be going through the remainder of the process together most likely. Little did she know I had been following her blog and knew all of this beforehand! Jana also informed me that there was another baby girl brought into the care center at the same time hers was. She actually had been following the two baby girls since January on the gmail site that our group has to post pictures. Once she received her referral she knew this other baby girl was still out there. Jana also knows that I should be next in line. So, she contacted her coordinator to ask about this particular baby girl and she said her paperwork is almost done so she should be ready for referral very soon. Jana did not want to get my hopes up and made me promise not to be mad if it is in fact not my baby girl, LOL, but despite a bit of hesitation she did eventually send me the numbers of which photos this baby girl was in. I have been looking at them and looking at them and looking at them some more! Could this be it? Could this actually be my daughter? Could this be my baby girl who one day will be in my arms and not the arms of the nanny? I don't know for sure and that is completely okay. That day I was given a new hope in the process and I think that is exactly what I needed! So, I will continue to wait ... in expectation because I do have hope in my God and His word!
Praise God for Jana Kohout and the random email of encouragement that she provided me that day - Praise God for all of the families who are in the midst of adopting whether it be here in the US or internationally - Praise God for all of the nannies who take such good care of all of the kiddos in the care centers - Praise God for Jesus!
Pray for the Kohout family as they now are in yet another waiting period of the process - Pray for faith and patience and trust and strength for all of the families who are in the process or even just thinking about adoption - Pray for wisdom and guidance for all of the caregivers of all of the orphans in the care centers/orphanages all around the world - Pray for my sweet baby LyLah that she would be safe and protected and know that her momma already loves her all the way around the world and back!
"I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits, and in His word I put my hope." Psalm 130:5
Love,
amy
I was sent a random email from the mom in the family that received their referral last week, Jana. You know, the one that I was supposed to get my referral before they did??!! I do believe God used her to encourage me as I was so disappointed last week. She wanted to thank me for the congratulations that I sent her, and also she had recognized our paperwork had been sent around the same time. Jana decided she would introduce herself as we would be going through the remainder of the process together most likely. Little did she know I had been following her blog and knew all of this beforehand! Jana also informed me that there was another baby girl brought into the care center at the same time hers was. She actually had been following the two baby girls since January on the gmail site that our group has to post pictures. Once she received her referral she knew this other baby girl was still out there. Jana also knows that I should be next in line. So, she contacted her coordinator to ask about this particular baby girl and she said her paperwork is almost done so she should be ready for referral very soon. Jana did not want to get my hopes up and made me promise not to be mad if it is in fact not my baby girl, LOL, but despite a bit of hesitation she did eventually send me the numbers of which photos this baby girl was in. I have been looking at them and looking at them and looking at them some more! Could this be it? Could this actually be my daughter? Could this be my baby girl who one day will be in my arms and not the arms of the nanny? I don't know for sure and that is completely okay. That day I was given a new hope in the process and I think that is exactly what I needed! So, I will continue to wait ... in expectation because I do have hope in my God and His word!
Praise God for Jana Kohout and the random email of encouragement that she provided me that day - Praise God for all of the families who are in the midst of adopting whether it be here in the US or internationally - Praise God for all of the nannies who take such good care of all of the kiddos in the care centers - Praise God for Jesus!
Pray for the Kohout family as they now are in yet another waiting period of the process - Pray for faith and patience and trust and strength for all of the families who are in the process or even just thinking about adoption - Pray for wisdom and guidance for all of the caregivers of all of the orphans in the care centers/orphanages all around the world - Pray for my sweet baby LyLah that she would be safe and protected and know that her momma already loves her all the way around the world and back!
"I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits, and in His word I put my hope." Psalm 130:5
Love,
amy
Saturday, April 14, 2012
Wait, I say!
With tears rolling down my face, I am reminded once again that my thoughts are not His thoughts and my ways certainly are not His ways. I pulled up my blog and I noticed a new post written just this morning by the family in which I am side by side with, as far as timelines go. Actually, I was expecting to receive my referral before they did as I sent in my application a few days before there's was sent. They too, were awaiting an infant girl so I knew that we would be receiving that phone call around the same time with mine being first, of course. It was so obvious that the process would go this way. I had it all planned out of course, until today. You see today I found out differently. Today I found out my plans on this process were once again, NOT God's plans. Today I read a blog that was full of joy and excitement and happy tears and relief to finally get to see a picture of that sweet baby girl that God has waiting for them.....a baby girl that is their own. Today I got to read about another referral that went out ... a referral that was supposed to go out after mine. I may be writing this with tears still running down my face BUT I praise God for the joy He has given the Kohout family this week.
So with that said, I am still waiting....and it is okay because it's not time yet.
Would you pray with me ...
Father, God - I have been waiting on my referral for my sweet baby LyLah for awhile now. I come before you today to ask for Your help. I pray that You would increase my faith and my patience and my trust in Your perfect timing for Your perfect plan for my life. I will put my complete trust in You with confidence and in expectation of Your answer to my prayer, whenever that may come. Thank You that You are always with me ... Thank You that You hear my prayers and will answer in Your time and in Your way. I know Lord, that You are without limits. Thank You for Your Truth and Your unfailing love .... Thank You for always keeping Your promises to me. God, I believe with all my heart, soul and mind that Your plan for my life is best, Your timing is perfect.Thank You, Lord. In Your will is the safest place to be, God help me to stay there. God help me to keep my eyes fixed on You today and for always. Thank You, Lord ... in Jesus' name
"Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord!" Psalm 27:14
Love-
amy
So with that said, I am still waiting....and it is okay because it's not time yet.
Would you pray with me ...
Father, God - I have been waiting on my referral for my sweet baby LyLah for awhile now. I come before you today to ask for Your help. I pray that You would increase my faith and my patience and my trust in Your perfect timing for Your perfect plan for my life. I will put my complete trust in You with confidence and in expectation of Your answer to my prayer, whenever that may come. Thank You that You are always with me ... Thank You that You hear my prayers and will answer in Your time and in Your way. I know Lord, that You are without limits. Thank You for Your Truth and Your unfailing love .... Thank You for always keeping Your promises to me. God, I believe with all my heart, soul and mind that Your plan for my life is best, Your timing is perfect.Thank You, Lord. In Your will is the safest place to be, God help me to stay there. God help me to keep my eyes fixed on You today and for always. Thank You, Lord ... in Jesus' name
"Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord!" Psalm 27:14
Love-
amy
Friday, April 6, 2012
No Greater Love
Well a week has went by since I found out just how close I am to receiving my referral and I will tell you it feels like a year. Each morning I awake thinking could this be it? Could this be the day I am going to get the call? And I pray and I pray and I pray. Every time I even think about what that conversation might be, my eyes fill up with tears. This is it! It's getting so close I can hardly even stand it. I have my phone with me at all times, well except when I'm at work of course, and I still check it every five seconds just in case I somehow missed a call.
I was just sure today was going to be the day. I hardly slept at all last night as I was anxiously awaiting the day to start so I could get on with it and eventually get that call! My small group is doing a Bible Study on prayer and last week we studied the example of Nehemiah and how he prayed .... so all night long I was praying like Nehemiah and I just knew God was going to grant me success in my prayer.
Well, I'm here to tell ya that my request was not granted today. I know God heard my prayers but today was not the day He had in mind for me to get that phone call so I must continue to wait. I must continue to wait and to keep my eyes on the prize and hold on. I must continue to trust and be faithful. I must continue to prepare and carry on!
I even waited to write this blog in hopes that I would be able to share some good news with you tonight. So, I did not get my prayers answered in the way I was expecting to today BUT I do have good news! And the good news is that it might be Friday, but Sunday is coming! Did you know that Jesus thought you were worth enough to die for? "He humbled Himself and became obedient to death - even death on a cross!" Crucifixion was full of pain and suffering that is too gruesome to even describe ... and that is exactly what Jesus went through because of our sin. Jesus, the one and only sinless man to ever walk the earth, died the most painful of deaths so we could be free and live with Him in eternity. He became sin so that we could be saved! And in the midst of all the pain and suffering He still was not thinking of Himself as His first words from the cross were "Father forgive them for they do not know what they are doing".
Jesus demonstrated a love that day, a love that no man could ever begin to compare to. Jesus died, was buried, and then three days later He rose again! This is the Truth! This is the Gospel! This is Jesus and He wants YOU to begin a relationship with Him! He loves you so much that He died for you and even if nobody else does, He thinks you are worth it!
Praise God for His unimaginable, crazy love for us - Praise God for His faithfulness - Praise God for His Word - Praise God for Jesus!
Pray that we would keep our eyes on the prize and continue to hold on - Pray that we would remember Christ's love for us and the sacrifice He endured - Pray for opportunities to share the Gospel with someone who has yet to hear the Good News - Pray for my sweet baby LyLah!
"Greater love has no one than this: to lay one's life down for one's friend" John 15:13
Love-
amy
I was just sure today was going to be the day. I hardly slept at all last night as I was anxiously awaiting the day to start so I could get on with it and eventually get that call! My small group is doing a Bible Study on prayer and last week we studied the example of Nehemiah and how he prayed .... so all night long I was praying like Nehemiah and I just knew God was going to grant me success in my prayer.
Well, I'm here to tell ya that my request was not granted today. I know God heard my prayers but today was not the day He had in mind for me to get that phone call so I must continue to wait. I must continue to wait and to keep my eyes on the prize and hold on. I must continue to trust and be faithful. I must continue to prepare and carry on!
I even waited to write this blog in hopes that I would be able to share some good news with you tonight. So, I did not get my prayers answered in the way I was expecting to today BUT I do have good news! And the good news is that it might be Friday, but Sunday is coming! Did you know that Jesus thought you were worth enough to die for? "He humbled Himself and became obedient to death - even death on a cross!" Crucifixion was full of pain and suffering that is too gruesome to even describe ... and that is exactly what Jesus went through because of our sin. Jesus, the one and only sinless man to ever walk the earth, died the most painful of deaths so we could be free and live with Him in eternity. He became sin so that we could be saved! And in the midst of all the pain and suffering He still was not thinking of Himself as His first words from the cross were "Father forgive them for they do not know what they are doing".
Jesus demonstrated a love that day, a love that no man could ever begin to compare to. Jesus died, was buried, and then three days later He rose again! This is the Truth! This is the Gospel! This is Jesus and He wants YOU to begin a relationship with Him! He loves you so much that He died for you and even if nobody else does, He thinks you are worth it!
Praise God for His unimaginable, crazy love for us - Praise God for His faithfulness - Praise God for His Word - Praise God for Jesus!
Pray that we would keep our eyes on the prize and continue to hold on - Pray that we would remember Christ's love for us and the sacrifice He endured - Pray for opportunities to share the Gospel with someone who has yet to hear the Good News - Pray for my sweet baby LyLah!
"Greater love has no one than this: to lay one's life down for one's friend" John 15:13
Love-
amy
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